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this is gonna really piss you off...i'm making a new xanga i think i'll let you know for shizzle if i am i want a new name it'll be my last one if i make it i swear!

Don't It Make My Brown Eyes Blue
Crystal Gayle
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I don't know when I've been so blue
Don't know what's come over you
You've found someone new
And don't it make my brown eyes blue

I'll be fine when you're gone
I'll just cry all night long
Say it isn't true
And don't it make my brown eyes blue

Tell me no secrets, tell me some lies
Give me no reasons, give me alibis
Tell me you love me and don't let me cry
Say anything but don't say goodbye

I didn't mean to treat you bad
Didn't know just what I had
But honey now I do
And don't it make my brown eyes
Don't it make my brown eyes
Don't it make my brown eyes blue

Tell me no secrets, tell me some lies
Give me no reasons, give me alibis
Tell me you love me and don't let me cry
Say anything but don't say goodbye

I didn't mean to treat you bad
Didn't know just what I had
But honey now I do
And don't it make my brown eyes
Don't it make my brown eyes
Don't it make my brown eyes blue

Currently Listening Lost in the Plot By Dears see related

what it is hoe...i dunno what it is. i'm in a fairly good mood i suppose it as good moods go. making spaghetti o's because i can what it is bitch. i like my layout. don't know if i'll keep it doesn't really match the damn song but oh well...i'm sure blonde redhead would understand.  ah well.

probably moving into the house this weekend. i dunno i haven't decided. probably next weekend. yes i'll wait til next weekend. anyone who wants to help? probably not. i'll probably do it next saturday morning onetrip quick and painless so uh yeah.

i'm gonna miss you guys a lot. i'm still gonna try to make an appearance first day at lakewood so fret not kiddies. going to skully's august 19th for wierd science night with sky and britt and nikki and probably joe and carl as well if they're lucky. welp my o's is calling me. love you guys!

shi shi

i realize in my midst of talking about love and how badly i want it i see that when it comes a long so to speak i put of a fight to not give my heart away. i'm scared of being hurt like i have so many times. i have an oppurtunity i think at the current moment to be with someone. someone who's nice and would treat me like a queen....but i'm scared. my heart has been broken too many times and i know life is too short not to take the risk but i'm so scared.

i shouldn't involve guys in my life not now i have so  much going for me so many things and the last thing i need is to become emotionally unstable..yet again. gah. i dunno my head is all wonky. i'm just off balance right now. i've got som many things in my head at the moment it's ridiculously hard to keep track. so uh yeah. but i love you guys. COMMENT ME GODDAMMIT! WHA THE THE FUCK MAN?!

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NEW SONG: MISERY IS A BUTTERFLY BY BLONDE REDHEAD

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ODD I HAVE AN EXTREMELY NON-COMPLEX LAYOUT...GASP.

talked to bryan today that's cooch to those who know him. i miss that kid a whole buttload. well i may be here 2 weeks so folks uh i loves ya. i might make it three weeks so i can come to lakewood first day and scare everyone with how much i really haven't changed. i know you folks love me...i know it.

i should have a get together her at the apartment this weekend or something. we'll make an actual kung fu get together out of it.

heather and josh and paul and ryan and cooch and lewis and kala and anyone else who wanted to come it'd be great. i'll have to make some calls....yes i shall.

i dunno i want to see all these people and my lakewood peoples so i may have to do something of this sort...ah yes i may have too. i haven't started repacking yet. eh but may as well. i may wait til britt is moved in til i go. so um yeah. that's maybe what i do. i love you guys take care!

COOCH I LOVE YOU!

shi shi

so update. scott came over last night so yeah it was friday so that wasn't wierd at all.  had usual late night conversation until 6 this morning. he's a sweetie. i was a little drunk. jack daniels will do that but it was fine i wasn't retarded or anything. so uh yeah.

joe is now officially gone. kinda sad but things need to get in order. so it'll be fine. no joe hi day tomorrow i need it for re-packing. will be gone before not this coming saturday but the saturday after so i only have a bout 2 weeks tops left here.

so i want to see people come see me. HEAHTWOOD VILLAGE 82 ANDOVER ROAD APT. B. kids it ain't hard. i was in a crappy mood yesterday. i told carl heather's the only person who really bothers to come see me so dilligently. i know people are busy i get that i really do but i just wish people missed me as much as i miss them. 

so uh yeah i don't really know what i'm trying to say but me and a couple glasses of fu ki plum tonight. that's sake. i likes it grape wine with plum extracts and such good stuff. i won't be drunk it takes forever to get drunk from sake since the alcohol content is soooo low. i just like the taste i'm not drinking it to get drunk i just really enjoy the taste.

hounddogs tonight? i dunno trying to get a bunch of people to go trying to round them up and whatnot. should give mr. halsey a call. love that guy...sooo hard. lol. talked to ryan for a bit today. miss him. i miss a solid friendship with him i guess we used to have that for a while but things are kinda topsy turvey. i'll be over him and i'll be happy when i am. i don't want to dwell on him for the rest of my life.

on to bigger and better things my loves. i dunno. i love you guys even if you don't love me.

heartbreaking isn't it? that's how i feel about anyone...here's my heart it's nothing special.

shi shi marie